1. The Idea of Order at Key West | Wallace Stevens

    She sang beyond the genius of the sea.
    The water never formed to mind or voice,
    Like a body wholly body, fluttering
    Its empty sleeves; and yet its mimic motion
    Made constant cry, caused constantly a cry,
    That was not ours although we understood,
    Inhuman, of the veritable ocean.

    The sea was not a mask. No more was she.
    The song and water were not medleyed sound
    Even if what she sang was what she heard,
    Since what she sang was uttered word by word.
    It may be that in all her phrases stirred
    The grinding water and the gasping wind;
    But it was she and not the sea we heard.

    For she was the maker of the song she sang.
    The ever-hooded, tragic-gestured sea
    Was merely a place by which she walked to sing.
    Whose spirit is this? we said, because we knew
    It was the spirit that we sought and knew
    That we should ask this often as she sang.
    If it was only the dark voice of the sea
    That rose, or even colored by many waves;
    If it was only the outer voice of sky
    And cloud, of the sunken coral water-walled,
    However clear, it would have been deep air,
    The heaving speech of air, a summer sound
    Repeated in a summer without end
    And sound alone. But it was more than that,
    More even than her voice, and ours, among
    The meaningless plungings of water and the wind,
    Theatrical distances, bronze shadows heaped
    On high horizons, mountainous atmospheres
    Of sky and sea.

                       It was her voice that made
    The sky acutest at its vanishing.
    She measured to the hour its solitude.
    She was the single artificer of the world
    In which she sang. And when she sang, the sea,
    Whatever self it had, became the self
    That was her song, for she was the maker. Then we,
    As we beheld her striding there alone,
    Knew that there never was a world for her
    Except the one she sang and, singing, made.

    Ramon Fernandez, tell me, if you know,
    Why, when the singing ended and we turned
    Toward the town, tell why the glassy lights,
    The lights in the fishing boats at anchor there,
    As the night descended, tilting in the air,
    Mastered the night and portioned out the sea,
    Fixing emblazoned zones and fiery poles,
    Arranging, deepening, enchanting night.

    Oh! Blessed rage for order, pale Ramon,
    The maker’s rage to order words of the sea,
    Words of the fragrant portals, dimly-starred,
    And of ourselves and of our origins,
    In ghostlier demarcations, keener sounds.

  2. mathematics

    respect divided by love
    admiration plus dramatic thirst
    self loathing times attention
    poetics subtract the unsaid.


    a remainder of three years.
    syntax error.
    less than zero.

  3. Snow Day #14 | Sue Goyette

    She spends the morning crushing strollers. The laundry
    is up to her hips. She minces threats into whispers. Recycle!
    Her love is for them all. There are no matching bookends.

    The hours can climb out of their cribs. She puts a safety gate
    between now and the morning of her death. Her terror
    is teething. She still has time to defrost her father’s

    letters. Slow down, she tells the plans skidding down
    the hallway. Her mother will need watering. She scours
    her morning with salt. She lets the birds trace her hands

    for their art project. There is no question about it,
    she will organize a memory swap. The phone is a flashlight
    into her silence. She tries icing her kids’ boredom so it will

    taste better. The birds keep coming to the door. The one
    with the shovel does the talking. The clouds are delivery trucks
    with more weather. She can remember when a season lasted

    a season. Her sisters are melting and can no longer hunt.
    She dumps an ice cube tray of potential into her drink.
    She’s not dancing she tells them, she’s twirling.

    The fridge is her first husband. She still has a cupboard full
    of punch lines she’s saving for dessert. She decides to sneak one.
    Something about the only time his light came on. Unfortunately,

    her brain is a sieve. And her hands are garden tools. She finds
    herself raking through their screeches for the truth. Okay. He hit
    her but then she bit him over the princess puppet. The judicial system

    of puppetry requires child removal. Aw, they moan, deciding now
    to be harmonious. She could make excuses but she doesn’t have enough
    sugar. Cut it out! she yells and yes, hands them the scissors. The birds

    need some pulleys and will no longer look her in the eye. The windows
    demand her council. She is at the end of her rope. Everything starts
    with a little olive oil and an onion she says to no one in particular.

    The kids demand a story and jump on her nerves. She may have lost
    her keys but she refuses to lose her mind! She stands at the sink
    and watches a hydrangea of soap bubbles disappear down the drain.

  4. Everywhere

    “Poetry is
    Everywhere”
    lectures my literature professor,
    “IT’S A
    METAPHOR!”
    I think-yell
    In my best
    (terrible) Tracy Morgan
    Impression.

    Heart heat beauty
    Isn’t housed on
    Library shelves,
    It’s “transient phenomenons”
    Found in
    Scuffed vintage boots,
    The smell of coffee on the breath
    Of a cute boy,
    Cute boys, doodling,
    It’s an outdoor tutorial -
    Two picnic tables,
    We veer off topic in the sun.

    Everywhere-
    Thing-
    Is poetry.
    The discomfort of
    Feeling old,
    The frustration of
    Feeling young,
    Alexander Gharam Bell jokes,
    Missing my giggle-snort
    Best friend and our
    Midnight play
    (Secret hip-hopera.)

    Poetry is
    Lacking,
    Is the stuffing,
    Tricks,
    (“Illusions, Michael!”)
    Allusions, Meghan.
    Poetry is hearing a poet
    Discuss his poetry
    Pompously
    Self-mythologizing,
    My first-year nose wrinkles
    In response.
    (Writer-me harumphs
    In cross-armed
    Paranthesis)

    Poetry is finding out
    This literature professer
    Found grade twelve “boring,”
    And did not finish
    High school,
    Making that
    Two
    Of the smartest men I know
    Sans that specific secondary diploma.

    Everywhere
    Is notable,
    Quotable,
    Every day a verse,
    Every month a free-fall
    Through seasons.

    Pounding sounds of
    The big smog,
    Sixties twist and shout
    Stuck in my throat,
    The eye contact of
    A woman made of
    Light and steel.
    She catches my
    Not-so-stealthy stare.
    I am writing a poem
    About her striking features
    With glimpses,
    Poetry zings
    Through my body when
    She notices.

    Poetry is
    Everywhere,
    Does not take action,
    Encompasses the soul
    Or stands to all sides,
    It is the natural
    Functioning
    Day-to-day,
    Microscopic purpose
    Macroscopic perspective.
    It lives,
    It waits
    To be noticed,
    Loved,
    Transformed
    Into a poem.





  5. visual poem….ish????

    visual poem….ish????

  6. emotionally gangly

    tea. tom waits. a monday night
    spent with a giant philosophy textbook,
    “But I just know there’s got to be more”
    taking breaks when
    the numbness breaks
    cheek, jaw glints
    splash drip -
    a tear stain on Hume,
    blue ink on my duvet -
    gripping my highlighter
    for dear life,
    and it’s a dear life
    that feels too small
    for moral relativity,
    too huge to rattlle so in my skull.
    and tom sings,
    “i strive for purity,
    and I slip just like the stars
    into obscurity.”

  7. than sinning

    a generation dosed in hand sanitizer.

    drugs to take for every tick we make.
    and we label, label, we label.

    my friends throw out their jackets when the lining rips.
    the man at Upside Dive
    sold me my purple peacoat half off,

    we made the torn lining the silver, not the cloud.
    what can i do but glamorize my poverty?
    what can i do but glare quietly

    rolling my eyes at the privileged.
    counting my blessings and burnt-out hours.
    i try to see freedom, not cannots,

    trying not to define myself by what’s missing.

    barter the world down to affordability.
    living beyond my means.

  8. epicure

    in red lipstick i make
    note of the flowers
    in meek girls’ hair,

    when the un-stylish give it a try.

    i am horrified behind my wine glass,

    i am towering over party guests,
    i don’t need high heels to be cruel.

    we’ve trekked down bathurst and
    climbed up a flight of stairs,

    a sense of time travel wafts through the speakers,

    1920’s jazz, toulouse paintings,

    brass decor, brass in my blood.

    the elite are here, the nobodies in the corner.

    why is the inside of my head a grade school playground?
    why am i sizing everyone up,
what do they have that i don’t?
    i’m missing something, i’m quietly
    knocking the others
    down dead,
    dead as my eyelined blue,

    cloudy with judgement.

    mid-party and i’ve

    retreated into my bitch-skull…

    i’m tired with my mask.

    smiling at the elderly,

    pouring them tea at the matinee.

    crumbs of cookies displayed,

    can’t i kill this cheerful barista?
    i vomit her up at 2pm every saturday,

    she is driving me crazy —

    i spy the birthday woman,
    looking too beautiful for her age,
    soft and clear and gentler
    than me,
 her daughter’s age.

    i melt into her arms and we

    swap stories of running 
ragged at school,

    of pajama parties with casts of 90’s sitcoms 
kept close by in their box sets.
    she softens me to someone real,

    someone flawed,

    someone between silly and brilliant.

    there is no one to apologize to,

    no need to snap,
    i shake my hair, i laugh,
    no one sings happy birthday but the room still swings.

  9. lynn crosbie snuck into our literature lecture today

    the lecture was on her book of poetry “missing children.”

    i spent half the lecture nervously fiddling with my faux-fur hat and finding reasons to turn around and stare at her to see if this woman with the deep laugh of a writer hearing her words outloud was truly mizz crosbie.

    she so was.

    AND SHE SIGNED MY COPY OF THE POEMS AND SPELLED MY NAME CORRECTLY

    AAAAAAAAAND she asked me to send her some of my own work, to get her contact info from Prof. Mount, and that she liked what I had to say in lecture on her poem “Envy” (I actually kept my hand up long enough to speak today.)

    I like what you had to say in the lecture, it was quite beautiful.

    I think she said beautiful? Some sort of complimentary adjective.

    I AM LITERARY STAR STRUCK MY HANDS ARE SHAKING

  10. Purdah | Sylvia Plath

    Jade —
    Stone of the side,
    The antagonized

    Side of green Adam, I
    Smile, cross-legged,
    Enigmatical,

    Shifting my clarities.
    So valuable!
    How the sun polishes this shoulder!

    And should
    The moon, my
    Indefatigable cousin

    Rise, with her cancerous pallors,
    Dragging trees —
    Little bushy polyps,

    Little nets,
    My visibilities hide.
    I gleam like a mirror.

    At this facet the bridegroom arrives
    Lord of the mirrors!
    It is himself he guides

    In among these silk
    Screens, these rustling appurtenances.
    I breathe, and the mouth

    Veil stirs its curtain
    My eye
    Veil is

    A concatenation of rainbows.
    I am his.
    Even in his

    Absence, I
    Revolve in my
    Sheath of impossibles,

    Priceless and quiet
    Among these parrakeets, macaws!
    O chatterers

    Attendants of the eyelash!
    I shall unloose
    One feather, like the peacock.

    Attendants of the lip!
    I shall unloose
    One note

    Shattering
    The chandelier
    Of air that all day flies

    Its crystals
    A million ignorants.
    Attendants!

    Attendants!
    And at his next step
    I shall unloose

    I shall unloose —
    From the small jeweled
    Doll he guards like a heart —

    The lioness,
    The shriek in the bath,
    The cloak of holes.

About me

"i didn't rest, i didn't stop."

eye liner. legwarmers.
light-up yo-yo's.
memory of steel.
firecracker.
freckles. kissing. bikes.
pretending. longing. leaving.

"I try not to look at her so I don't get blinded by the earnestness."